Today has been a rough day for me emotionally. In case you don't know what happened, here's the story so I don't have to explain it.
http://www.nytimes.com/2011/12/09/us/violence-revisits-virginia-tech-after-two-are-killed-in-shooting.html
It's tough. I love this school more than anything and events like this, do they make me regret my decision? Do I feel unsafe or worried about my future? The answer is no.
Virginia Tech is more than a school, more than a college, and more than place. It's a community. It's a family. The love we share for each other is platonic and big hearted.
To the people who texted/called/facebooked/tweeted me to see if I was ok, Thank you. from the bottom of my heart.
My heart is heavy tonight as for the reason I named the blog what I did. Officer Crouse was 39 and lost his life keeping this campus and this family safe. But that isn't what my focus has been on. My focus has been on the fact that he was survived by his wife, 5 children, other step children and his mother and brother. How would I go about tell my kids they would never see their mom again? What about christmas?? Is it still an option for the family at this point?
I'll leave you with a few thoughts and links:
Here is the story on the officer who was killed.
http://www.vtnews.vt.edu/articles/2011/12/120811-unirel-crousememoriam.html
And here is something that really touched my heart. Given the situation, I will ensure this is ok with the family as it is possible the family just wants to grieve alone.
http://www.facebook.com/events/317632654923222/
But in a matter of an hour in a half, 1200 people have said they want to help. Would a city do that? Would a college do that? No. But a family would.
Another link that hit me hard. It shows God's handy work. and that he does care about Blacksburg, Virginia and knows every single of the 30,000 students by name and the number of hairs on their head.
http://imgur.com/5NUw3
If you are reading this, then more than likely you know me on some level. But! Not many people know the real me. The real me is torn tonight and is finding hard to move on with the rest of exams and life like the rest of the nation and world is because a fellow family member is no longer with us and that means hurting for the people he loved. I will make it through so don't think I'm not strong. But know I would love your prayers.
Sincerely, a somber but knowing God is bigger...
Hokie
