Sunday, August 28, 2011

Sophomore!

Well First week as a sophomore is done. Let me tell you a little bit about my classes.

Accounting- The material isn't my favorite but I really like the professor. He is close to my age and relates the material really well.

Business Statistics- Again, material is kinda dry but it shouldn't be too bad. Professor comes off Hard but I know she really wants the best. She already cancelled class on the Thursday night football game. Win in my book.

Public Speaking- Blah. Requirement for just about everybody. TA is quite annoying and ditsy but I will live.

Music Theory- Probably my favorite class. I love the material. It's challenging me to learn more about music, a strong passion I have.

World Regions- Imagine this. In the biggest auditorium on campus, with 3,000 fellow students, learning about current events from a comedian of a professor that strives to include everyday technologies like twitter into the class. Yep. It's epic.

Thursday, August 4, 2011

Yep. Today hasn't been the best.

My family and I (really just my mom and I) have been arguing more and more and I don't like it. Maybe I have spent too much time at home. I am definitely ready to go back to school.

Some more discouraging news: I was not approved to change majors like I wanted to. I have been crushed most of the evening. Disappointed in myself mostly in that I made this harder on myself by not choosing what I wanted to do the first time. I have been here calling myself a failure and how worthless I am because I may have no future but I beat myself up too much. I have no clue what it is, but God has a plan for me. And I really want to believe it is an amazing plan. This whole college process has not been easy for me. I am going to take the classes I intended to take and try to do really well so as to boost my GPA and then reapply after this semester. I graduated 8th in my class in high school. Above a 4.0 GPA and found school to be so easy. I thought I was going to program but I was dead wrong. If you judge a fish on it's ability to climb a tree, it will go through life thinking it's a failure. I just wish college wasn't about numbers and files and grades. It should be about learning.

Life is hard. But if was easy, would it be worth going through? It takes a strong person to take the hits and keep rolling. That's what I am doing.

I had no intention of using this as a personal stuff for everyone to read but whatever. I have never cared what others think. I have enough on my plate without that. I have a best friend that lives in California. and she amazes me everyday. maybe I can meet her someday. No one else makes me want to stay up til 7am talking on the phone.

I wonder if I should have gone to youth camp this week? I know I would have loved it but money, school, life; it just didn't seem right.

At least I get to have some fun tomorrow night with my best friends. I need it.


Can't think of anything else to add. So Peace Out Girlscout.